so you choose her

she gets prego at 14
has a kid at 15
yet i choose to have a mother and a father
regardless if they are together or not
and i am the one who is shunned out
is this right?
this is the hardest thing ever
i love her. i dont think her getting pregnat is bad
yet i also dont see me seeing my parent...even though they have another spouse is bad as well
i dont know what is going through your mind
and i know you love me
cause i love you too
but i need a home
somewhere i feel safe
somewhere i can bring my friends
and if you are consistantly drinking when we start this new life
well then i really dont know if my home, will be there
at least not yet
someone told me the other night
that were you are now
isnt where you will end up
i think this is right
but i think i wont end up in either
i will end up on my own
because right now,
i cant rely on anyone in my life..im beggning to think not even me
now i have liked him for years
yet i like his best friend
and you know he would never betray his best friend
which makes it even worse
because i would rather be with that one
it sucks because i know it will never happen
but i can just be looking at photos of him
and my stomach actually gets butterflies
and when he is with other girls, wow is it hard
i dont know how to pick...because if i choose the one i want
i know i wont get him
and i like the other one
just not like i like him..
cause i honestly think i love him
can you love someone without even really ever being with them
just talking to them
i think so
cause i feel really strongly about these
and these feelings really suck
i get lightheaded when he comes..or honestly when i text or think about him
it hurts so much and i wish you would be with me.. no one else
i would treat you right. i would never hurt you.
i would be the one to love you back
and i know thats all you want

because i do love you..
no matter one anyone says
you dont have to be in a relationship to love someone
and i know that first hand.